How did I get here?

How did I get here?

How did I get here? I’m not sure if I should feel ashamed of myself or angry. I can’t tell anyone what I’m feeling because I’m sure they will judge me. After all, I have judged myself every day since he died. Six months ago, he took his life, right now I don’t deserve...
Suicide’s Unanswered Questions

Suicide’s Unanswered Questions

Everyone has a different experience. Mine is not exactly the same as anyone else’s, nor is it exactly different. I’m not a first responder so I didn’t face the same challenges, but I believe we can all learn something from each other. I don’t walk around and tell my...
“Cumulative Trauma” My Story

“Cumulative Trauma” My Story

When began my law enforcement career in 1994,  I had no idea the toll daily exposure to traumatic events would cause.  At that time, mental health was never talked about nor was it mentioned in the police academy; the attitude was to “suck it up”. The first...
2020 – Year In Review

2020 – Year In Review

Here at Blue H.E.L.P., we aim to honor officers lost to suicide and support the families left behind, educate the public to bring awareness to mental health issues and reduce the stigma, lead in advocating for benefits for those suffering from post-traumatic stress,...
What is a Law Enforcement Career?

What is a Law Enforcement Career?

What is a Law Enforcement career? Service to the community, the dedication to the brothers and sisters in blue, or is it the fulfillment of something more personal. I have spent a lifetime, a career of walking that thin blue line; life and death, justice, and...